Well, it's been a while, hasn't it?

So, I started writing poetry again. Still cute little ones, but I like those.
This one does not have a title yet. Lend me your thoughts?

I feel like I'm in high school again -
this fluttering in my torso,
hundreds of tiny
wings (faeries, perhaps?)
spreading their blessing through my
physical body, to match
this stream
of consciousness flitting
through my synapses, illogical
yet penetrating

my Heart:

so quick to leap
out of my breast and bestow
a portion of itself upon the nearest
adorable nerd
on its radar.

This situation is so
predictable, yet also
exciting; it has been too
long since these bubbles filled
this ribcage and head,
bringing me close
to giddiness -
how deliciously juvenile
a feeling. So warm
to bask in, so cozy
to remember.

balls.

I haven't been writing in here nearly enough.

This is something I was afraid of when I started

the pills. There's so much to write about

yet no phrases come to mind.

Fuck.

unrequited no more

It’s funny how quickly
a friendship can
dissipate when you’re
no longer
secretly in love
with them.

There’s nothing
left to want.

The letter I wish I could have written

Darling Löwchen, 

Of course I'll forgive you

and help you turn

your broken life

around, and love

you forever, regardless.

Trust is easy

to regain; your words

are enough for me.

I am still yours

because soulmates exist

and people do belong

to each other and

it so rarely ends

in disaster.

We can be best friends

and lovers at once

and forget

the past together.

I still love

you.

Immer deine, Süßchen

I should know better...

I'm trying to think

of what I can learn

from this besides cynicism, 

again.

impatience

It's all too similar to wishing,

this gauzy hope.

You tear it so simply

with your silence.

and so it is.

"Endurance is an expression of love." - Lee Woodruff

and therefore I

endure, because 

I love

myself, so for me

I will withstand

all the heart-

break and drama

and fear that life

throws

in my direction

to prove

to myself

that I love her.