The letter I wish I could have written

Darling Löwchen, 

Of course I'll forgive you

and help you turn

your broken life

around, and love

you forever, regardless.

Trust is easy

to regain; your words

are enough for me.

I am still yours

because soulmates exist

and people do belong

to each other and

it so rarely ends

in disaster.

We can be best friends

and lovers at once

and forget

the past together.

I still love

you.

Immer deine, Süßchen

I should know better...

I'm trying to think

of what I can learn

from this besides cynicism, 

again.

impatience

It's all too similar to wishing,

this gauzy hope.

You tear it so simply

with your silence.

and so it is.

"Endurance is an expression of love." - Lee Woodruff

and therefore I

endure, because 

I love

myself, so for me

I will withstand

all the heart-

break and drama

and fear that life

throws

in my direction

to prove

to myself

that I love her.

I don't understand this.

no, you cannot break 

my heart and then expect 

me to still be 

your 

best friend

hearts don't work 

that way

they're not quite

that resilient

little things.

I quite enjoy reveling in the small things that make me happy. I've decided to compile a short list.

+unisex bathrooms
+the house being empty
+singing loudly in the empty house
+dancing through the empty house
+falling in love with a new webcomic
+breakfast!
+philosophical discussions with Thomas
+hugs
+tea
+warm blankets. mmmmm

I return with the spring.

Nature is a tease. But
I'll take what I can.

Sorry it's been so long, The Sopranos had our retreat this weekend.
I came back with some funny stories, better friends, and a solo [fever]!

The glimpse of spring
will be cherished,
no matter how brief.
Sunglasses will be worn,
along with galoshes,
songs will be sung,
puddles splashed,
walks taken.

Teasing spring makes today a marvelous day for Tristan. Her music IS spring and summer for me, and has been for years. I started my day listening to Daisy and that was a fantastic choice. She is a beautiful and talented woman.